On chocolate

Can I just say that I love chocolate? It can be your best friend and your worst enemy – too little and you just want more, too much and you turn into a madly typing demon woman, but just the right amount and you are sanguine, busy, with energy but still able to...

On time out

I think I need time out tomorrow morning. It’s a terrible thing, because I feel intensely guilty for not wanting to spend every moment with my baby (I could write a book about mother’s guilt and I have only three months to draw from. Imagine the series in...

On child care

I am filling out an application form to be placed on a waiting list for child care. My baby is now 11 weeks and 2 days old, and it is hard to imagine leaving her anywhere away from me. But the reality is, if you don’t get your baby on a waiting list, you might...

The night marches

Bubba kept me awake until 3.30 am when I finally caved and took her to bed with me. I don’t want to make co-sleeping a habit, but have to say, last night I took it on with not much more than a wry smile: Ellie 1, Jackie 0. I manage nights like that now by...

On the joy of making a person

It’s a lovely thing, having a baby. You have created a little person! It’s amazing to hold your baby in your arms and think, you didn’t exist before. You didn’t exist at all. And now here you are, a human in the making. And you’re mine....

On sleep

I have been meaning to write this post for a couple of weeks. But I have been too tired. Every new mother knows why sleep deprivation is included in the UN Convention Against Torture. I don’t need to elaborate on that. Instead, I want to write an ode to sleep...